change sucks.

Yep. I said it. Change sucks.

I am not a fan. I used to somewhat enjoy changes in my life - new classes, new friends, new living situations, new people, new places, etc. But now? I'm not a fan at all. Summer is ending in 3 weeks. I have been looking forward to this month of August since May - being able to move back to Allendale, being done with Target for the school year, and preparing for new classes - all sorts of changes. However, now that August is actually here, I'm hating it.

Don't get me wrong, I am looking forward to being settled in Allendale, living with my best friend again, and being near all of my friends. But packing, leaving home, moving, buying school supplies, blah blah blah. I hate it all. At this point, I would be content with another month or two of summer. I've finally become accustomed to the craziness that this summer has been, and now everything is changing again. Like I said - not a fan.

However, one thing isn't changing. I'm not leaving Target. I never thought I would say this, but I actually like my job (most days). And I love the people I work with. They're so great. And after "deciding" a week and a half ago that I would be taking Academic Leave again this year, I haven't stopped thinking "What if I didn't have to?" ... so I'm not. One day a week I will still get to see the coworkers that I love, and make a little easy money folding clothes and answering phones. That little piece of my life isn't changing. And for right now, I'm ecstatic about that... because the rest of these changes... I'm just not ready for 'em.

The biggest change that has me completely freaking out? This is my SENIOR year of college. I'm not old enough for this. I'm not old enough to be submitting grad school applications, requesting official transcripts, collecting letters of recommendation, gathering PT observation hours. It's all just a little bit overwhelming right now...

And being overwhelmed means it is time for sleep.
Goodnight.