Hot Mess.

I am a hot mess.
Actually, I'm cold.
Because Michigan is bipolar in the weather department.
But seriously, hot mess equals this girl.

I've been home from spring break for 9 days now ... and I miss Rotterdam more than anyone could have ever told me I would. I fell in love with the city, with the people I met there. Being there, being so far out of my comfort zone, I was forced to truly rely on God, and was met head on with the fact that this world is in desperate need of relationship with the Creator. For more on my experience in the Netherlands, feel free to check out our team blog - http://www.nl2011.blogspot.com. I long to be back in Holland... but clearly that isn't an option right now. I have the final 5 weeks of the semester ahead of me, and then a full summer of work, volunteering and taking classes. Summer? Hah. So much for that. I do however look forward to what my future may hold as far as the Netherlands is concerned ... spring break next year? A potentially new summer project in 2012? Who knows. I'm keeping my options open and letting God lead the way.

Why else am I a hot mess? I've been sick since returning home last week - my body hates me. Also, I'm scheduling my last year of undergrad classes at 7am tomorrow. I'm not old enough to be doing this. It seriously freaks me out. Yet another reason? I miss my best friend. She's been in Spain for almost 2 months now. And we've got a little under 2 months to go. Yikes. I don't know. My brain is always going a million miles a minute these days.

The part of me that isn't a hot mess is consistently reminding the rest of me that God is in control, that He won't give me anything I can't handle and that I am a part of an absolutely amazing community, full of people who love me - even if they are spread across 3 continents.

I could ramble on forever, but I need to go to bed and try to kick this sickness.
Goodnight, world.