What It's All About

Why is it so easy to get completely, totally, utterly wrapped up in life?

I find myself consumed with thoughts about work, about friends, about school, about the future... but my thoughts don't naturally turn to God very often. Why?! He knows everything - Future? God knows. Drama? God knows. He knows. He knows. He knows. It just doesn't seem to want to stick in my head... well, it sticks in my head just fine. My heart on the other hand? My heart is clinging to every little bit of control I can possibly have in life. So dumb.

Talking to a good friend last night, we both have the same issue - our priorities are so messed up - time with God is not at the top of the list... it isn't what is coming first in life. I want God to be the first place I turn to in any and every situation. Because in the long run, having a solid foundation in Christ is what it's all about.

My goal for the summer - dig into God's Word. Get to know Him. Spend time with Him. Allow Him to become my best friend. Build up little by little. Nothing great is accomplished over night. It will take time. I just need to commit.

And also, after years of refusing to read it just because everyone else was... I started Captivating. So far, I like it. More on that later, I'm sure.

Now I leave you with this... part of a song that I love, and that fits with this post perfectly.

Someday she'll understand the meaning of it all
He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens,
As close as a heartbeat or a song on her lips.
Someday she'll trust Him and learn how to see Him.
Someday He'll call her and she will come running,
and fall in His arms, and the tears will fall down and she'll pray,
"I want to fall in love with You."
--Jars of Clay "Love Song for a Savior"--