live in the moment.

It has been an absolutely insane week.
And honestly, that is an understatement.

Getting back into the swing of managing school, work, Cru, friends and sleep has been a struggle. I don't see my friends nearly as often as I would like, I got less than 5 hours of sleep multiple nights this past week, and I'm feeling like all of the things on my schedule, added together, are aiming to kill me.

I'm not the girl who thrives under stress. I'm not the girl who functions well on little sleep. I'm not the girl who can go non-stop for 16 hours straight. And because I'm not that girl, I find myself living for the weekends... telling myself "Erin, you just need to make it through Thursday night... then you can relax, sleep, work a little bit, and catch up on homework." ... And I hate it.


I want to live in the moment.

I am blessed to be a stressed out college student. I am blessed to have two jobs. I am blessed to have friends that I wish I could see more often. I am blessed to be involved in an amazing ministry. I am blessed to live the life that I do. Even when I have those crazy, non-stop 16 hour days, I don't want to wish them away. I want to enjoy the little things and soak everything in. Walking towards the sunrise as I head to campus to study at 7am. Being able to have friends in classes, and laugh about our crazy professors. Drinking coffee and laughing with a friend instead of studying like we should. These are the moments that I will never get back.

This semester is 1/4 gone... Senior year is 1/8 gone. It's going by quickly, and as life gets even busier, time will fly even faster.

I want to live in the moment.

motivation.

I have absolutely no motivation.
I have 100+ pages to read for Microbiology.
And yet I find myself on the internet and watching the Emmy's Red Carpet.
I know the longer I procrastinate, the less sleep I will get. But, I cannot bring myself to buckle down and read.

Motivation, I don't know where you're hiding... but this semester is officially in full swing and I would greatly appreciate it if you came out of hiding and made yourself comfortable in my life again. Okay? Okay!

Time to get some work done.
Bah.

the little things.

Two weeks.
Two weeks into my senior year.
Two weeks of an insane schedule done.

What have I learned in the past two weeks?
I've learned about microbes... about immigration in the United States... about social psychology... about metabolism and macromolecules... about new procedures at work... how to do fifty different things at Target. I've learned I've learned that when things feel completely out of control, it is okay to take a step back and give up... because regardless of my need to control things, the world can survive without my stressing over little things. I've learned that in the midst of craziness, God is good.

I've learned to appreciate the little things.

A funny text. Getting out of class a little early. A beautiful sunset. A good meal. My snooze button. Venting with my roomie. Catching up with friends I haven't seen since last spring. Playing with toddlers. Getting an hour break to take a nap.

Appreciating the little things and relying on God, I will survive the craziness that is Fall Semester.

Two weeks down.
Fourteen to go.